Showing posts with label loss. Show all posts
Showing posts with label loss. Show all posts

Saturday, July 30, 2011

In Memory

It is with regret and great sadness that I share with you that my mother has passed away.   As many of you know, she was 83 and battling cancer for almost 3 years. 
My dad and I (as well as other members of her family) were with her in those final moments. She went peacefully and without pain.  I express gratitude more than words can say for the Hospice and nursing home caregivers -
she died with those 'angels' surrounding her. 

We are very sad and trying to ease our pain by leaning on one another right now. 
Much healing will hopefully happen in the days ahead. 
My mom was a classy gal, full of life and love.  All the many things she did in her life we are reminiscing about...but one thing most importantly was that she was always thinking of others - much of the time more than herself.  She supported and encouraged us in whatever we wanted in life. 

She was such a casual bird watcher and lover.  As we arrived at the nursing home yesterday, where she was being cared for in her final days ~ I found solace in the gentle lilting song of a male cardinal from a nearby tree as we entered the doors. She would have heard it, too. She was always stopping us to listen and look.  I learned so much about being a strong woman from her and am amazed at her strength as she faced her cancer with determination
and her commitment to acceptance of her 'plight'.   Many times it seems life isn't fair but we are given the tools to deal with whatever comes our way - if we just accept it for what it is.  Another source of my admiration of strength has been from my dad.  He has been caregiving for my mom in such a devoted, loving, selfless and understanding way.  Without his care and love, mom wouldn't have had that extra time with us all. 

Those of you who have expressed your concern and sent well wishes my way, I hold them close to my heart.

MOM I love you - you were the best!  



Sunday, November 21, 2010

Where I Stand Sunday

Voices from the Edge...
Still sorting this thing out and trying to find peace and solace. 
Wondering how and why it all happened? 
Worst time is arising each day - what a routine we had.  Herman always insisted on being #1 lap dog..guess who has taken his place?  And he is choosing to do it 'overtime'.  My arms are open wide.
Interesting dynamic to watch - in both of them, as they obviously notice his absence.  Chaco seemed to sense the whole ordeal from the beginning.  Watched Bailey (big dog), who always looks far beyond the dog compound - look around corners, and in other areas,
sniffing for where perhaps Herman had been but definitely looking for him.
Accepting the differences in each day now. So many 'changes' going forward. 
We have our good memories. 
We are hangin' in there...
Where I Stand Sunday is an ongoing photo essay examining the different places I spend my life standing. Too often we take for granted the everyday places we spend our lives walking on. If you'd like to join me and a few others (who faithfully post this day) by posting a photo on Sunday of places you've been on your blog/photo hosting site/website, leave me a message or a comment and we will include you in our fun.


Still Truckin' Along

  Yep - I am still doing ART - making MARKS - giving it an almost daily START - however, I am just NOT in the space anymore.  (and I will ...